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Shadows of the Heart

Press Release: NY Feb. 14,2008

William R. Green and his wife Yvonne Green teetered on the brink of divorce of their 25 years of marriage, after William confronted Yvonne about her two year affair with her former partner, N.Y.P.D. Lt. Robert Wells.

Yvonne, caste out of her home takes refuge in the arms of Lt. Wells, but during their vacation in the Bahamas she began to have second's thoughts after a visit to see a local witch, and her nervous breakdown on a lonely stretch of beach.

Speaking of witches, Dana didn't have a clue as to why her life had suddenly fallen on hard times. A successful business woman who would like to think that her only problems in her life were getting her deliveries made on time, but she's about to lose her top clients for her business woes. And as if losing tens of thousands of dollars a day wasn't her biggest problem, she could find no peace from her insecure boyfriend, Kevin who forced her to choose between her long term friendship with her former lover, William, or her relationship with him.

Joann would love the opportunity to reclaim her former lover, William, but after getting a beat down from her man Jay-Dee when he found her naked underneath her robe only minutes after William visit. And like from out of the pages of the best romance stories, William return to her side ready to do battle and to comfort her, but while she laid within William´s arms she asked, through the congestion in her chest and her runny nose, "Why does it have to hurt, to love you?" Pain shot straight to his heart, but the pain he felt would never surpass the heart ache and problems he´d caused in the lives of his former lovers like Dana, Andrea, Grace, and Joann.

William knew his death was soon at hand, what he didn't know was the when or the how, but Andréa could see William being shot to death, was the hit that Lt. Robert Well placed on William, successful?

Andréa's physic ability informed her that the serial murderer/rapist planned to make her mother an victim along his path to erase the message, but her husband believe she returned to New York to save the life of her former lover, William. For the last two months, night, after night he listened to her as she spelled out William's demise, and could not wait long enough for it to come to pass.

Mr. Wells could not cope with the sudden rejection of he beloved Yvonne, so he ordered an hit on William, figuring with William out of her life, Yvonne would have no other reason but to join him in matrimony. But he forgot William was a diehard, he was shot twice in the chest six years earlier on a cold night in Brooklyn, and manage to survive curtain death.

His best friend Jake began to unravel the dark secrets of William's past through the compact discs that was given to him by William. The discs that told of William dealings with Andréa, Joann, and Dana, the discs that told the secrets behind the killings and untold murders that he never told to a soul. How he never mention the young woman, Grace Blackwell, who sacrificed her life for William 22 years earlier, yet for the last 22 years he often visit her in a Long Island cemetery.

She was young, dark, beautiful and naive. She just graduated for high school seeking love, seeking attention, seeking to start her family and then came William, a young and extremely charming predator who fit the bill. Little did she know loving such a man would cost her, her life, but for twenty years she held on to him like no other.

Step into the middle of William R. Green world-wind of love and destruction where all he wanted was to reconcile his marriage before he faced his own death. But what he didn´t know was that it was his own wife he needed to fear, because she has return to the home from where she was banned and with a decision to make, to kill her husband, or go against the odds of starting a new beginning.

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Part IV

Its been weeks since I ran into Ms. Appleonia, but she had been on my mind quite a bit. I admit she touched something inside of me. I question myself over and over again: Was it her body that got me this way. I mean she had a bangin fat ass, and some nice tits too. But that was only part of package. There was something about her..It was her that pulled at me. Oh well I just chalked it up as one of those things.

Oh yeah my ex finally came by to pick up her cloths. We had a few words. I guest it helped to clear the air between us. I hope she got what she wanted and find all the happiness I wasnt able to give her.well not really. I dont understand it. Woman always running around claiming theres no good men out there and when they get one whos welling to work hard for them and give them things they desire, they take him for a ride. Lets face it men love hoes and bitches, while women pimps and thugs. Cause she can keep her B-boy. Cause I need a woman, not the little high school girl who have a crush on all the captains or, hard talkin thug wanna be. But to each his own, all I ask for is dont take three out of my life to decide youre on this new flavor kick.

It was around one oclock when I decided to step out for lunch. I was thinking chef salad. I love a nice meaty, cheesy salad. The day was hot, hazy and humid. Expected to reach ninety-eight to a hundred. I spent some time in Louisiana and their hundred and five degree weather is heat hot. You can feel the sun touching you, but New Yorks hundred-degree weather tagged with the three Hs, is murder, theres no air. So when I got out of the heat and into the cool shelter of the restaurant I was consider if I should eat or dip back out into the sun storm and take refuse in the confine of my office. The office beat that idea out two thoughts to one. Who wants to eat then go get beat down for a ten minute walk out there in all that heat.

When I got to the cashier I had my salad, juice and cream savers on the counter, "Ten-fifty." Said the smooth dark skinned sister name, Joy. I really didnt think there was anything joyful about that total, but then you usually spent about ten dollars for lunch. As I handed Joy a twenty-dollar bill, "Here Ill pay for that and mine" said a woman behind me as she handed Joy thirty dollars. I turned to face who I thought would be my co-worker karol, but to my surprise it was Mz Appleonia, who had the same exact meal.

My heart stopped and a lump formed in my throat, I just felt strange. I didnt know what to say, but I knew I had to say something, "Appleonia..wha..whahow Good afternoon, how are you?"

She smiled at the idiot, me, "Im fine Mike. Are we eating here or do you have somewhere else you need to be?"

"Here.........here would be fine." I somehow said.

We looked for a place to sit. The place was kinda packed. But we found a table, right next to the window. It was that or the one by the men rest room.

We sat near the widow and prepared our meals to our likings. "Mz Appleonia would you please tell me the when, what, how and why to this visit?"

"This salad look great, doesnt it?" She started off. "Well a couple of weeks ago I met this wonderful gentlemen. He was this charming, little cutie who was trying to get at me, but I wasn't too receptive to him because I let something that another man have done to me interfere with my vision."

"And you can see clearly now?" I asked.

"I dont know, my head is still in a fog. But I am more receptive. You were very kind to me Mike and I needed to personally tell you that. I was a mess. I was just running with no thought as to where I was running myself into. You stepped in, stopped me from whatever and sent me home. I can never repay you for that...."

"What I did, I did from my heart. There is nothing you need to repay, you owe me nothing...."

"Yes I do. I owe you lunch. That hot chocolate tasted so good. It really hit the spot let me tell you."

I laughed, "Alright I can get with that. I can accept that. So how did you find me?"

"Your business card you left with the driver. So I after I got home I did exactly as you told me."

What did I tell her, "What was that?" I was inquisitive.

"You told to me to heal, and that was exactly as I done. I cried. Oh Lord, how I cried. For days I cried. The pain isnt gone, but I can breath again. For the last few days all I could think about was to tell you Thank you, and how grateful to you I am."

"You could of called." I suggested.

'No. I needed to see you face to face....."

"I'm very please that you did. I didn't think I was ever going to see you again. Well you already know I trying to get at you. So where do we go from here? Or is this one of those thank you followed by a kiss on the cheek then you turn and walk away?"

"What if it is?" She looked me in the face.

"I dont think I can stand to see you walk out of my life again."

"Mike I need time to get through....."

"Take as along as you like. All I ask when you think youre ready, remember me. I don't know what you previous man done to you, but he was a fool. Whatever he done, Im more then welling to make it up to you and then some....."

"Wow. I dont know what to say."

I looked her deep in her eyes, "Say yes."

Part III

 

 

But only empty words passed her lips, the sound of her exhale gave me an indication this wasn’t about hot chocolate or dry clothing, and I wasn’t sure if I really wanted to venture into her world any longer, but when I gazed into her eyes. They pulled me in, my heart and willingness were captured by her gray skies and clouds which I prayed were filled with silver linings. “I’m sorry. I’m pushing up on you, and you don’t even know me from Adam…..” I said as a feeling of defeat washed over me.

 

“No Mike it’s not you.” She began to shiver. “I……..I just……….I just got dumped by my boyfriend, and I guest I’m not really feeling men right now. You really seem to be a sweet guy and all. But you guys always start off that way. You fool us. You capture our interest, then you capture our heart, and in a flash you run off with our love. It’s so heartbreaking to give someone……….”

 

I cut her off, “To give someone your everything. You fool so foolish for allowing yourself to become so open. Wide open. To make this person your world, your very reason to live and they betray you. You feel so crash you can’t even hurt, too damn numb to feel pain. The world makes no sense to you. You actually feel like checking out. A passing thought you give some serious weight……”

 

She continue, “You feel that no one can fill that spot…..so you bend your rules, your standard and accept the fact you’re second in this person’s life and you’re willing to accept any position, just as long as they keep you near.”

 

And I said, “Then they look at you in discuss, as if they stepped in dog shit or something, then you know just how low you sunk………. Yeah I think I know what you mean Mz. Appleonia, I have a clue….. Look come let me put you in a cab and I won’t accept no as an answer.”

 

She let me walk her to the curb to heal a cap. She had tears in her eyes. I wanted to hug her, to squeeze her and make her feel better, but hell I wasn’t feeling to damn swell myself. I was dealing with lost of love. It was hard to sleep in a king size bed that bear her scent. To step into your closet and see you’re still sharing it with a ghost. A phantom of hearts. –But still I wanted to make feel better. Apple deserved some happiness. I didn’t feel as if I was the one give her all she deserved, but the least I could do is get her home so she can start on her pathway of recovery. 

 

A cap pulled up to the curve. I opened the door. She came from behind me with her head down and got in. I closed the door. I stepped to the driver’s window. He rolled it down I said to him, “Take the lady anywhere she wanna go.” Then I reached into my pocket for some change. I had no idea what this trip would cost, or how far she was going. With gas prices I knew it wasn’t going to be cheap. So I handed him a hundred and fifty dollars, “This is for the ride, if there’s any change give to the lady.” Then I handed him twenty dollars, “This is your tip.” I reached into my pocket once again, “This is my card if the ride cost more then that call me and come back here I pay the balance, okay?”

 

He shook his head, which I took as a yes. Then I remembered something, “Hold on. Stay here I’ll be right back. Don’t go no where.”

 

I took off and darted traffic. The drizzle was a fine mist now. I quickly return to the waiting cab. I asked Mz. Apple to roll down the window, and she complied. I handed her the large cup of hot chocolate, “Here I got a large, I think it’s going to be a long ride. I added marshmallows to make it creamy for you. I hope you like it that way?”

 

“That’s just the way I like it. Thank you Mike, you’re so sweet. I don’t think I can repay you….”

 

“I didn’t ask you to repay me. Just get home safely and start your healing. It’s been a pleasure meeting you. Take care of yourself.” I said and stepped back away from the cab.

 

The car pulled away. She said something but I couldn’t make it out, the sound of the city upstaged her. Humph, I didn’t understand what just took place only that I was out of a hundred and seventy-six bucks. I had got myself a large coffee, which I held close to my body when the sky opened up. The rains failed harder then ever as I watch the cab blend in with the others and out of site. I turned and slowly headed for my building with feelings I didn’t understand.

Part 2

 

 

She finally decided to look me in the face, I didn’t know if I was saying something right or something wrong but she showed me some signs of attention even if it was like “who the hell this?”

 

She had the most beautiful gray eyes I ever seen. Well they were the only gray eyes I ever seen on a black person. They looked real, mysterious, and inviting. So now that she finally looked up I pressed on. “You look to be about a ten but force to wear eleven, twelve’s in the pants cause you are bless with a big butt and medium in the top. Am I right?”

 

“Look you been so kind I……”

 

“No problem, no pressure. Look my name is Mike I live in this building. I’m just offering a hot cup a chocolate with marshmallows or whip cream if you prefer, and some warm clothes. My ex left a ton of clothes which I was just waiting to find the time and toss them in the trash…..”

 

“Look I don’t think so. You’re really kind but I don’t wear other people clothes and it’s getting late, but thank you.”

 

“You’re welcome, but half of the stuff is new with tags on them. But if you think I’m some madman the store owner here knows the cameras are recording us and my doorman will all verify you were with me if you disappeared off the face of the earth. Yes you are a beautiful woman, and I would love to opportunity to learn who you are and what are the things that makes you the person that you are, but at this moment I’m really would like to make sure you’re okay. I’m even welling to pay for youe cab ride home and you owe me nothing and if that’s being too kind, then hell you can pay me back. What you say?”